googlegooglegooglegoogle.com is the coolest website in the world. i'm not sure how it is even remotely helpful, but being on four webpages at the same time in one tab is just blowing my mind. because currently, i am looking at this:





anyway, like i said, not really that helpful, just kind of cool.


also, sitting in church today (or standing, really, since we were singing at the time) and i got really really excited about the holidays. at least i won't be a grinch this year. i'm pumped. i am ready for real food. for family. for the ending of football. for friends. for a break of school. for not paying $1.25 to wash my clothes. to not study anymore. to go to my home church (although i really like going to church here in starkville). for music. for decorating. for pretty much everything.

but alas. back to studying i go.

- i suck at calculus
- i, however, am good at procrastination
- i am gullible
- forgiveness is very hard. especially when most of me doesn't want to forgive at all.
- 99% of all my long-sleeve shirts are too long in the sleeves
- 75% of those long-sleeve shirts are either pink or green
- 'across the universe' soundtrack was a good buy
- it's the day after, and i still haven't gotten john mayer's new cd
- i suck at friendships
- also at schoolwork
- i like it when i can sing loudly in my room without weird stares
- i'm ready for thanksgiving
- i learned a lot more in wx analysis than i thought i did
- i'm going to have to study a lot to make good grades on my finals
- i'm going to a hockey game
- i adore my major
- my wx friends are hilarious, i'm so glad i met them
- i still don't like wx barbie. how can she say a lot of nothing and still sound intelligent?
- i commit to too many obligations
- i am fat
- i am going to not eat until thanksgiving
- cake is fantastic. this is why i'm fat
- i should start running. i hate running.
- God definitely tried to tell me something today
- spelling "definitely" correctly (there's not an A!)and differentiating between "you're" and "your", and spelling dessert correctly (you like dessert twice as much, it has two s's. thanks) is apparently beyond college student capability.

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sometimes i'm scared that i get so excited or so worried about events and days in the future that i miss the here and now.

please don't let me be that person.



"therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. each day has enough trouble of its own." matthew 6:34.

i honestly have no words to describe how incredibly blessed i am. i had a moment tonight where i was overwhelmed with the joy of life. God has given me so much, and even though i complain a lot, i am truly thankful for everything.

there's nothing i have ever done that could even make me believe the tiniest bit that i deserve this happiness that i have. the amazing friends that i have. i get to do what i love, where i love to be, and with the people i love.

not that life is perfect. far from it. perfection is incapable in the world that we live. but even in the shadow and the tear i will praise my God for what He has given me.

being "joyful in hope" is a verse i hope i can strive to accomplish every day. i just don't have the language to express my adoration for the only One who deserves it, and the joy that is rooted in my soul for experiences that daily unfold for me.

this has been the best three consecutive days i've had in such a long time.
i don't know what i did, but God especially loves me this week.
i don't know if it is possible to smile bigger than i do each day.

i'm so incredibly happy.

i spent a lot of time in solitude wondering if i were too hasty. i read a lot of poetry and tried to decide if i was too rash. then i bought a new cd, asked myself 'how many times can i push it aside?' and realized that 'it's not the end of the world, just you and me.'

i'm deleting myspace. it reminds me of the time in my life where i stayed up late on the computer waiting for you to get online just to tell me goodnight. a time of intensity, in both feelings and heartache.

but now that time has passed. being within sight of my 21st birthday, i have gathered clarity, new friends, new boys, new determination, and a new perspective on life. i'm turning over a new leaf. there once was a time where i felt like i needed you so much more than you needed me. now 'i'm over it. yeah, behind me now. i'm just over it.' you and i are so much better apart.

don't think i didn't enjoy it. i did. parts of it. most of it. but i'm moving on. 'cause if you close your eyes and listen close, you can hear the chapter close. and it's all rebound in better clothes. and you like the way this story goes.' but now the story ends. i'm cutting you out.

and then you, we could go on for days. but again, i'm moving on. i can't stay the same forever, and even if you can't see it, you have tons of others to invest more time in. stop worrying about me. life is carrying me away from there. i'll be okay on my own. i can make it just fine. i survived for a long time before you came around and i can survive again. no problem.

and then you. looking ahead, i know you'll be proud of me.

i'm happier now that you're gone.
so please stop talking to me.
thanks.

if i listened to my own advice. then i wouldnt be so royally screwed up right now. thanks a lot, self. the end.

dear dianna,

we must have a talk, my dear. you're going to fail calculus again if you don't start going to class. you never know what's going on, and drawing dinosaurs on your exams do not count for credit. you don't want to sit in justyn's office having a breakdown again, do you? i didn't think so. what's worse, failing calculus will put you so far behind that you'll never graduate on time. do you want to stay here forever?

also, while we're on the subject, i know that you think your voice and articulation class is super dumb, but you've got to go. just skip two more times and you'll drop a letter grade. you'll probably already get a B in there, since your crazy teacher plays favorites with the football players. a C in a class that stupid is not acceptable.

bottom line? you've got to start going to class. 8am isn't THAT early. after all, you get up at 4:30am for work on thursdays. just two and a half more months. you can do it, and you'll be done with math...FOREVER. there's your motivation and your silver lining all rolled into one. as far as your voice and articulation class goes, it starts at 9:30am. if you can get up for work at 4:30am and class at 8am, 9:30am should be a breeze. i know it's dumb, but just think of it as a chance to see that really hot football player. motivation found.

so there you go. go to class. pay attention. take notes. study really hard. ask questions. go to your teachers when you don't understand something. make them sick of your face. do it the right way and get it over with. it's okay that you'll have no life because you'll be studying all the time. you don't have much of one anyway, you're pretty lame already. take my advice now, or you'll regret it when you realize in december that you've wasted four months of your life and have to take yet another math class.

love,
your more thoughtful and smarter you

october is coming. that's my favorite month. combining college football, my birthday, fall break, the beginning of fall, and halloween was the best decision ever. not that i had anything to do with it.

anyway, i need a halloween costume. someone is sure to throw a party, and i need ideas. throw them out there.

even if i never say a word to you, thank you for giving me my inspiration back.
this whole thing was worth it already.

am i making this mistake with you, or against you?
i've been feeling rather uninspired lately.


"i suppose that since most of our hurts come through relationships so will our healing, and i know that grace rarely makes sense for those looking in from the outside."
"life takes a bit of time and a lot of relationship."
the shack.

i just had two of the most draining weeks. but it was lovely, and amazing, and i'd never trade it for anything. sure, we had those emotional moments, we had our little fights and stupid arguments, but we turned out just fine. one of my favorite trips, by far.

and on another note, i slept so well last night...no air mattress...no cold air...lots of covers... and no one else in the room to wake up when i go to bed late every night :)



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i told you that you wouldn't like it.
pretend as though you may.
i know you better than you know me.
does that bother you at all?

why don't you try consistency?
it looks better on you than hypocrisy.

remember that when you find out
what i've been doing and where i've been.

i change my mind everyday.
i just never know.


never doubt me.
my words are always here for you to read.